guiltiness & IMPRISONMENTS ....................

I can’t imagine of a country where there is NO PRISONS. I like to guess at least 198 of prisons in the world in total.  I know that in some countries the total number of prisons exceed the very first number of the any mathematical analysis that is the ‘1’.

People become guilty before many institutions in many ways. Some become guilty before the ‘self’, their loved ones, friends, co – workers, relatives, neighbours, world and there is the all know, popular, lawfull ways of becoming guilty that is before the book of the ‘law’.

We, You, I, they, she, he, judge people the way they like or prefer other than the ‘JUDGES OF THE COURTS’.  I do not know how ‘fair’ we are in our JUGDINGS. The judges of the recognized institutions called courts judge people according to the books of the laws local or international, udarata district or provincial laws (?) according to my understanding they don’t judge or give their decisions according to the ‘societies’ Norms or values, that is not possible.  But we judge ‘people’, person, a man, a woman, based on what? Following the laws written on books? We never do judging that way. Our judgings mostly based on ‘assumptions’  we like to assume things.

In courts after writing ones destiny ( I apologize for using such words other than the words and terms attached to the books of the laws, I am unaware of such terms) let  say ‘hang till death’ the judges break the pens they used, to write such decisions. What do we do?  We do not follow any such procedures after writing or sending ones ‘life’ in to the prisons of our illusionary , to the places where they think that ‘impossible to return to good status’.   

After imprisonments, in most the incidents heard at courts, the situations where the judges don’t write ‘hang till death’ statements, there is always a hope of returning in to their homes.  But in our judgings and after creating or labeling others, person ‘guilty’ do we follow such proceedings to ‘forgive’. We as normal human beings that do not belong to any ‘saints’ or Arhat’ categories don’t think of aiding our thirst until the person die physically or mentally.

I remember trying to interview few prisoners at ‘Welikada’ for my third year dissertation thinking that I went to the prison with one of my neighbouring friends ‘Kumudu’ she was graduated from the University of Jaywardenapura we are in same age category.  I met the Commissioner of the prison at that time in end of ’94 or ‘95. He kindly advised, looking at both of us ‘I think you should change your mind and think of another research topic’. I don’t think that you can interview prisoners here with ease of mind, peace of mind I think it might be little difficult for you to continuously do that.  He told us for our own good. 

Most them are defensive because of the way that the societies’ look at things , the way they look at the ones imprison.  Do you think that we look at such people in a way that we look at other people who have not imprisoned for any reasons? NO. We keep things in side and we talk of such people in our day today conversations, discussions, groupings, at our lunch or dinning tables.   Why we do so? We do so because we forget the meaning of the term ‘unpredictable/s of life’. You never know how life sometimes treats you. What way the destinies of our life ‘written’.  Some has to follow ‘self defensive methodologies’ in life but the ones of the societies we live that judge our ‘self defensive methodologies or strategies will they say that you are not guilty and followed such things to ‘protect own life’.  They imprison you in the courts that they have built in their imaginaries or illusionaries, unrealistic lives.  

Who suffer because of all this and that judgings ?

The ‘guilty’ only? (the rightness or wrongness of judging/s forget for a moment )

We sometimes forget our loved ones how they feel during all these situations that we don’t like or never expect to face such moments in any moments of our lives other than the embracings. We don’t think of ‘how the person’s’his/her family might feel if we say things to their faces, when we insult them saying their names , reminding the activities or what so ever they may have done. We at least do it behind their back even if we can’t say it to their faces. We enjoy their guiltynesses other than trying to heal the wounds of the same person or of the loved ones of the person.  

‘ oya koluwage thaththa horek’

The father of that boy is a thief

Ara kellage amma ganikawak hire indala aawe

That girl’s mother is a prostitute recently released from the jail’

Some say or use such wordings in straight before their faces.

But you know what ‘they never change the places that they hold within for their loved ones’

A daughter never calls a smuggler the person is always the father’ for a daughter not a smuggler, murderer, killer or any person guilty. They still call them father mother sister son daughter they don’t call them using the number given at the prison.

I think we must get at least a single chances to hear the ‘conversations’ at prisons when they come to meet their loved ones , imprisoned.  Get a close up of the eyes during their conversations.

Never think that I am going to say something that we should release all the prisoners harmful to the societies all what I am saying is ‘WE NEED TO CHANGE THE WAY THAT WE LOOK AT SUCH PEOPLE, THE WAY WE TREAT THE REST OF THE MEMBERS OF SUCH FAMILIES FACED ANY SUCH SITUATIONS.

I can’t imagine or dream of a day that there is NO PRISONS IN THE WORLD, or no imprisonments

Can we imagine of a place where there is no prisons

Why?

Do you think that we who are not among the bars of the prisons are always ‘not guilty’

Can we think of a moments that we don’t do ‘crimes’ to pollute other people’s hearts and minds at least in a tiny way?

Don’t misjudge me for writing this my essay that way I think we all should be imprisoned for sometimes insulting, spoiling, misjudging, gossiping, wishing ill wills, hurting the hearts and minds of our loved ones, breaking hearts, hacking the hearts and minds of personalized arenas of people’s lives,  and using them to throw stones at them.

No one in this world we live is ‘PURE’ no one as such.

We all guilty at least for something the only difference is that we have not taken to any custody, courts or sent to any prisons.

We mostly engage in such what ever crimes knowing that we are doing something wrong but finally we like to put the whole blame in to one person’s pocket, or in to the bags that we carry in this sansara thinking that we are not guilty.

Come before me if there is anyone who have not done a single crime (the weight, measurement, capacities differ from each and every thing we do major or minor) to spoil , hurt any ones mind one way or the other. if you have not contribute even in teeny weeny way to support the ones who organize hurting campaigns, if you have not given a single phone call to insult any of the ones you think is your enemy (assuming) and if there is anyone who have not laughed at any person behind their backs please come before me.

I can’t make any vows before any mirrors of truth saying that ‘I am not guilty totally or fully in my life dealings because I have hurt my loved ones many more times in uncountable number. I say I m guilty in most the things doings of my life at least a tiny way.

I don’t visit my relatives who are in pain sometimes in their lives now and then therefore I am totally guilty. I am not going to justify such my actions to ease my mind. I can not do that.

I have not visited the hospital where my father’s (one and only) brother was getting treatment for his cancer therefore I am hundred percent ‘guilty’ before my own heart.

This note is to be continued ………………..

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