AM I INDEPENDENT ? ..........................

i was born exactly after 22 years, eight months and 17 days after the day that we gained independence. for some i am a granny and for some i am a sister for some i am sure i am a friend. for some relatives very close i am an aunt, especially for the kids like kids.

unless you just read my 'certificate of birth' no one can say whether i was born in Dumbara kanduwetiye or manahara Nuwaraeliye, Seethala (cold) kandukaraye, unusum ( warm) Anuradhapuraye, thejawantha saha abhimaanawath ( Prideful) Sigiriye, sithkalu (mind attracting) Kaluthara, hinehena ( smiling) Gaalle ( Galle), pena dura (within eye limit) Panadura,  kalaakaari ( artistic) Moratuwa just by looking at my face. 


if i change the way i dress and appear before people that never have met before they might argue that 'ah! Oh!, ha, hehe, why not, apo, mona pissuda, mona nuwarada ( what kandy)  she was born in better & better than before 'Trincomalee'. Also if i change the path and my outlook a little and drive a car of someones ( because i am a two wheeed driver that generally do not pay any money for fuel) towards any crazy way and a taste a little 'gin'gerly lemon ( a glass full) one can say She must have born not in Alimankada but in Pamankada. 

( Pardon me i am not insulting anyone)   

gained ?

independence ?

gained is this the right word ?

or is it the WON - the RIGHT word?

No this is not a day to answer puzzles and queries thinking towards that side and walking backwards or back and forth maybe it is possible to walk just here and and there to 'ask' few people how they truly celebrate the independence. their own views about independence and interdependence

 independence is not flag waving independence is not singing the anthem - National a loud, independence is  not listening to the speeches of royals, independence is not about boasting about the independence, 

independence is independence not dependence.

independence is paying back what we owe to the people of this country, independence is paying back every single grain that we ate without really appreciating the effort of the real farmers now and even back then.  

mental independence 

a moment  ago i observed a butterfly just flew over to the Bilin gaha ( tree) that is there facing the door of in and out of my room ( sorry Our room- nangi's and mine) but the colour of the butterfly i could not recognized because she was in a hurry disappeared without giving any moment for me to accurately identify her colour.

is she a white a black, Maroon, Orange, purple, green, Ash, red ? i could not sketch any lines of her physical features even i am thinking right now is she old like me or is she young like 'freedom' 'the independence', 'the liberty' or is she ill like 'dependency', is she suffering from chronic conditions like 'misunderstandings', or is she suffering from any mental conditions such as good hearts mania.

What was she looking for going from branch to branch of this tree and that tree listening to the kichibichi, pacha pacha and kacha kacha of her own interior. 

forget her for a moment i like to come back to my own kacha kache and apply this term independence and analyze in a little democratic way.

I like KICHIBICHI a LOT reason i like the way they all use their independence, liberty. i do not like my own kacha kache :) because i know that it bothers others a lot. i think i never can stop that kacha kache because i know that they ( my dear family) never can change their perceptions on me ' aiyoooo kiyawanawa kiyawanawa' so just because that they do not stop their sayings on me i never will stop my sayings on their sayings. 

PERHAPS the day that they think that i do this kacha kache for a fair reason then i might agree to stop. NO do not give any chances to enter the word 'revenge' it is a far away word/ term ,from the term independence  it is the opposite of independence. the OLD set of people who officially declared the 'INDEPENDENCE' without keeping any chances to complain and without keeping a single word that may lead their thinking towards 'we still are the owner of this RESOURCEFUL MIGHTY-FULL, GRAINS-FULL, WATER-FULL ( water resistant too), CAN FACE any blood+Y TERROR, ANY SWORD or WORD+ MIND that die and live for WORD the universe 'MY/OUR COUNTRY, OUR SOIL' may have not dreamed of seeing this much of a difference back then. 

Do they owe us any grains or puwak ( aricanut) or spices, the stones precious, and anything that are immeasurable or countable?

i guess it is so good if we owe something to some 'paying back is a good thing' i owe knowledge' to the all people lived and living of this country that i love so much. i owe and love the ocean  that protect this land from outside terror so mighty so tender way. i OWE every single good hearted personalities that protect this soil watching every single citizen of their own over to our roofs staying CLOSE to the so huge i do not know the exact length and width of lovable SKY, the ALMIGHTY MASTERS who sometimes WALKS and sometimes DRIVE through each and every single kandu, and landu ( mountains, hills, and forests) and saanu ( valleys) diya paarawal ( water ways) across diya ulpath ( water springs) heartily way, bravely, 'the protectors armed with good thoughts respecting every nation is a nation' ' all cities of ethnics' must be respected and loved group, and all POLITE parties ONE STARED AND TWO OR MORE STARED IN THEIR SHOULDERS yes i guess i may have to pay back i owe them too. 

i OWE ALL HEARTS AND HEARTS, THE OTHER OCEANS of this world i respect so much, all SINCERE ' andare 's AND THEIR FRIENDS, NO WORRIES AT ALL GOOD HEART SENEL WANNIAARACHCHI, the PHOTOSCAPE for what i have learnt and gained.    

my GURU and NEVER CHANGING FRIEND 'Mr MALINDA SENEVIRATNE' 

i owe him a lot for every single word i learnt from him 

i owe ALL OBSERVERS - magazineful people, KASURI AND SHAKUWI for their beautiful THOUGHTS, I OWE ALL THE BORN ON THIS SOIL - MUSICIANS A - Z, all WORD LOVERS for sharing their thoughts on BOOKS AND BOOKS AND BOOKS, ALL PAPERS ALL PAPERS AND ALL PAPERS
 I OWE every single art of hearts 'CINEMA ' for uplifting my this side of knowledge lines, every single ART LINES, all UNIVERSALITIES OF 'UNIVERSITIES' 'MOBILE', STILL PAUSE OR moving here and there. i owe them everyone.

MY FAMILY 

the HEAD OF OUR STATE  ' OUR PRESIDENT' for changed this country from a status of terror to NO TERROR status and ALL INVOLVED PARTIES who supported the process.

i owe all people and people and human associations for supporting me 

I AM NOT TOTALLY AN INDEPENDENT BODY.

WHY

I AM MADE OF WITH ASSISTANCE OF all people above mentioned. i still DEPEND on their KNOWLEDGE I AM INCOMPLETE BECAUSE THERE IS SO MUCH I STILL HAVE TO LEARN even in future I MAY LOOK FOR SOME GOOD WORDS THAT ENCOURAGE MY PATHS AND KNOWLEDGE LINES SO I AM NOT TOTALLY INDEPENDENT. 

I DEPEND ON MY SISTER MORALLY AND MENTALLY THEREFORE I AM NOT INDEPENDENT.

I DEPEND ON MY BROTHERS BECAUSE I GUESS I STILL DEPEND ON THEIR WORDS, SEARCH AN WAITS A FEW WORDS FROM THEM, THEREFORE I CONFESS THAT I AM NOT AN INDEPENDENT FIGURE.

I NEVER CAN THINK THAT I CAN EVER BE INDEPENDENT but i have no doubt i WILL EVER BE DEPENDENT ON 'knowledge' , poetry, beautiful words, smiles, no SWORD WORDS , no hurt words, of all of you.

i am no enemy of any FM, PM, MP,or TV, T, CC ( cricket council), LB ( lotteries board) all SHINES PARTIES , BES of all CHANNELS, all M 's and A - Z of any hearts and minds of this soil that i was born exactly after the numbers of calendar above mentioned I AM MADE OF THEM ' the things that they share on air and write on pages, visualize on all screens ' knowledge of all kinds  

B for beautiful

E for eye

S for SUN 

I AM NOT INDEPENDENT. 

WE ALL LOVE YOU JAFFNA - peninsula. kindly keep this in your mind, i like writing that on the LEAVES of all PALM TREES, and i like to re write these words again and again on each and every pages of books that are in the LIBRARY OF JAFFNA so that the 'generations to be born can read them and know how much we love you  and also on the all borders of this libertyful land. 

remember i was talking about my SELF and that is not applicable to the 'whole nation'

no one should forget that WE ARE AN INDEPENDENT NATION , COUNTRY. 

we is a HUGE WORD. 

API NIWAHAL NIDAHAS JAATHIYAK, RATAK.