may be that is because i always want to write something 'using all my efforts and knowledge' to convince them that how much i love them.
i wonder why such things happen. all what i have to say is that my brother Teran Lasantha who was born in Jaffna peninsula on a day very special to us. This particular day is marked as 17 on the calendar of a month named i am sure for a reason 'February' the year was 1976.
today is his birth day
Happy birth day Malli!
may your all every dream that you have written every inch of your heart that you have never told or shared with me bearing all alone thinking that your sister does not have time to listen or thinking that sisters elder to you does not hold the rights to listen or share the things write or written in the 'private channels of their hearts and minds sometimes come TRUE!
MAY YOU SURROUNDED WITH ALL THE HAPPINESS AND GOOD HEALTH and may you get all the STRENGTH that you need to keep your heart always healthy and to chase away all the weaknesses from every line of your world - life.
my brother is a three wheel driver who did not want to study further other than any motor mechanic stuff attached with all the engines and parts of vehicles. i remember he was not even 18 when he came to Colombo- Kaduwela to get his licence - driving.
he was so tiny at that time we used to tease him saying this and that because he was very tiny in height and weight and we were not quite sure whether he was able to get the driving licence at such a tiny but youthful age'. We were kids too back them. sometimes it is not the age that brings things before our eye sites ( i mean the successes) it is the 'will' and aim and ones willingness to face any or what ever obstacles come before the walking or driving lines of the roads - big of them.
and as a kid i remember how he used to take a pol pitta ( the hard part of a branch of a coconut, may be this is a very poor translation :)) and turning it to this side and that side imagining that it is a 'steering wheel' of a vehicle going kind of running from this lane and that lane making a 'brooooom' sound in his mouth all along the village - wevathenna.
he used to arrange his bed keeping a 'old basin' some where in between pillows thinking of driving towards his 'back then he had no idea of a particular destination' and in these arrangement of his dream vehicle a nicely cut pol pitta becomes his gearing tool which brought him happiness. And when ever my this little brother was thinking of moving upwards and downwards and to the sides of his kandu and pallan of his imaginary roads gravel and tared that he wanted to travel we felt little angry because this was not the picture that my father and the others including me back then( with a little knowledge about the situations of societies, needs and desires of people- all)wanted or expected to see .
An old picture of that arrangement of his dream vehicle' comes to my mind at this moment of me writing this little note the picture that he used to 'visualize' before his sisters' and brother's eyes keeping a pol pitta a side close to the old basin (steering wheel) and then positioning it somewhere suitable the way he liked and wanted.
And i know that such things brought him always a piece of happiness and added them to the all lanes of 'no sorrow' or 'no worries paths' of life routes 'ampitiya - kandy' most of the time and the settings and arrangements of his life 'dream vehicle' that he used to drew before his siblings eyes were slightly changed according to the place and needs of his own.
i remember my father was so worried because he did not want to study any further to become a person who generally gets the societies approval and acceptance all the eras and he was not well prepared to do a kind of a job that gets full marks from the society what we always had in our minds back then was 'society gives big place for big jobs'.
When compared to now and then of my living i noticed and have learnt people's perceptions over 'positions jobs or classes of society' plus their attitudes have not changed that much over years i like to think. things little better now i like to add because still i find some men and women whom i meet during my life searching amendments and the big brains try preparing modules for distanced education prefer set of people gives and allocates some spaces for such job holders 'the three wheel drivers' in their mind i do not know whether such things come wrapping with true feelings or respectations towards such categories of job holders.
well it is not fair to judge or create a poor picture of the society before others that i live because it is not always the people that give 'places and positions' to people it is your own hearts and minds that gives and takes away all what has been giving or given at some moments of ones life from society or from the lanes of education, culture, civilization, from the world of good people filled always with sincere thoughts towards their loved ones and also about the whole package of society as a whole. i believe ( though this does not come to remind me when necessary) that no one can delete a place that one has achieved or holds. What who ever has bad wills within sometimes can do is put barricades before their walk ways other than that 'how can people block ones walking lanes or desires of living a happy life' i like to think that way.
he is my BROTHER HE HOLDS A VERY AND VERY BIG PLACE IN MY HEART