A short note to Kadambari

FROM , Sandika

Footpath

www.com

House # 20

‘Blogspot’ Town

28.09.2013

TO, Kadambari

‘Gitanjali’

Tagore Avenue

Pyar Town

Namaste!

Dear kadambari,

(Forgive me for writing this letter in a very unofficial way though everything was addressed in a much formalized way, from the very beginning)

Let me begin this my letter asking one of the very popular questions that the super stars, the celebrities always get from the world of entertainment and news  

Here comes my first question to you, from my big list of questions that I have not yet listed accurately.

So, you were the first to read all what he wrote?

I mean the poems especially, picking and choosing the things that he he thought were poetic, collating a bit from the ashore of Yamuna and Ganga another bit from the grounds of Maliks, zamindars, Thakurs, observing and analyzing the lands of Vaishya, collating at least something or a lot from the surroundings of the wells of Brahmins? not only that i suppose, what about the things that he used to gain to sharpen and shape up his own life, listening to the conversations of the untouchables of Jorasanko, hearing the threats and insults of tops when the very poor trying not to steal but to take a bit of grain from the Thakurs mansions?

The question I just asked you was a little long one I know. But as the woman who was listening to all what he wrote and recited before you, during all those your good years, I am little hesitate to believe that you are taking that my question as the most longest question of the era ever asked by a neighbor

Am I right?  

Dear Kadambari,

What was his idea about ‘just letting a dead one’s last ashes in to a river like Yamuna or in to the ‘nadee Kaveri’ nicely keeping them in a bronze coloured pot’? that is what they think would give the dead a salvation right? and please don't forget to add your idea too on that?

i believe that there is always some values and a loads of meaning of the things that people believe and trust when it comes to rituals, customs, and traditions of any society 

do you believe in the same way kadambari ? 

kadambari i am not a very student of 'history' please tell me whether both of you had enough time to visit 'the Taj Mahal' ?

what was his idea about a lover, the beloved husband building a ' mahal' in memory of his beloved?

did he expect the same by writing the Geetanjali'? was he thinking that whole world should mutter his beloved name for decades and generations to come, that is your name - ' Kadambari' ?        

Other than writing and reading did he have enough time for romance?  

Aha! Don’t be so shy to answer and don't say No

i don't like to assume 'NO" and it is little sad to assume that way 

You were his brother’s beloved right? He knew it very well but how did all those happen?

I know that I shouldn't have asked you such a very personal question my dear friend Kadambari

yet I am no different to others. I too like others, exactly like other curious human creatures.  Were you embarrassed, me asking such a question from you? I am sure but will you please allow me to keep that before you?

Ok I do not want the answer and i don't want to assume anything because that is impossible for me

Kadambari

Please don’t be embarrass
You are not the only one of this universe that face such experiences in life and you are not the last one either

I am truly happy that he very openly talked of you and everyone knew that he loved you and you loved him

Let me ask you some complex questions here after and please do not think that I am smart because I ask smart questions always?

So what did you normally do after listening to all those what he wrote and recited before you?

Did you know how to give him feed back?

Did you understand all what wrote and shared with you?

I am sure you were because both of  you were very close to each other

Shared each others views almost every day, every minute, day and night?

I am thinking during all those romancing sharing how did he find time to write Geetanjali?

The traveler has to knock at every alien door to come to his own, and one has to wander through all the outer worlds to reach the innermost shrine at the end  

Did you approve all of them?

Did you by any chance told him to throw away some of the things that you disagreed of what he wrote?  

What was your true role dear Kadambari?

Were you just a listener?

Were you just a reader?
you were not a day dreamer right ? That is what i like to think 

Tell me how did you find time since you had a different role to play as the woman of RT’s brother?

Tell me I know how women and men of 2013 think about the women like you

Tell me frankly, how did they look at both of you then?

Were you belonged to Brahmin, Kshatriya, Vaishya, Shudra or to Him only?

Don’t tell me that you were the woman who suggested him to write ‘Gitanjali’

Was the chand listening secretly to all what both of you were sharing with each other, adjusting, commenting, erasing rewriting he the lines and words of what he wrote?

Did the untouchables of your time remained as untouchables in its true meaning? How did he look at some divisions back then?

If you were given a chance to write a poem not by him but by the society you were belonged to ‘what title would you give it’?

‘Rabindranath’?

‘Tagore’

‘Malik of my heart’

‘Listening’ - the most accepted task’

‘Sitar of my sole’

‘A role of a reader’

I know dear Kadambari you are very different to Madhuri’s, Sonam’s, Zintas, Katrinas, Kareenas of this era I do not know whether you knew Sangam, Ek pool do male ‘Pator Panchali’, all who Sathyajit R knew very well?  What good in just knowing I know

Dear Kadambari i think Parineetha is bit fortunate what do you say? Oh! don't know whether both of you have met before with each other? 

don’t tell anyone I listened to one of their conversations secretly when they were composing 

ek din church mei 

La la la

Hei hei hei

Say you mine 

And I was so happy that parineetha was asked to ‘put some words’ to what her beloved was trying to compose, very encouraging no how lucky she is no to have such a encouraging lover beside her?

so …………………..

What I am asking you here is that whether you were asked the same, did he ask you to put some words Kadambari’ when he was compiling Gitanjali’?

Were you sent to any ‘Paatashala’ by your parents to learn how to comment for poems?

What do you think about his following words my dear friend?

Who is this?

‘Waiting’

When day is done

When I go alone at night - twelve O’clock

Where the MIND is WIHOUT FEAR,

Where shadow chases light

When and why?

The hero,

The judge,

The sailor,

The merchant – the last bargain

The gift

I often wonder at mid night

Why do you whisper so faintly?

We are to play the game of death?

I was walking by the road

You walked

I asked nothing,

Patience prisoner

Song unsung

‘She’,

The paper boat

On the seashore,

The journey

The travel

Friend

Give me strength

I m restless

Kadambari,

What is your idea about ‘the ladies jumping in to the burning fire of the their beloveds that they were tied to them legally or after going rounds around the ‘fire - sacred while all others chanting sacred stanzas?

I am asking you about the tradition, ritual of Sathi Pooja

Were you confused as to what to do?  Because you were married to RT’s brother but solely you belonged to RT?

I don’t think that I ever can reduce the number of questions that I have to ask you

I think I should send all those little later

Alright

Take care Kadambari

Jai Matha Gi